Well, today's the first time I brought a car to school! :)) I was pretty nervous at first but my driver was outside the gate and I thought that making him see that I'm nervous would be a pretty bad move. So I collected myself and drove off to school. When I arrived in the campus, I noticed that there was a slight traffic and that there were more cars in the campus. I thought about the parking spaces and I figured I wouldn't get a chance to get the car parked in the campus but I circled five times hoping there would be a space for me to park the car. Unfortunately, I got tired and hopeless and I went outside the P.Noval Gate and I just parked the car on P.Noval near the isawan near our building.

I'm so lucky

     It's really nice to have lots of friends but sometimes things can get complicated. :) Things got a little complicated last Friday because of the conflict with the schedule but it's a good thing that both my friends are very understanding and patient. I just feel so lucky to have them as my friends. Thank you, God, for giving me such awesome friends! I would never do anything to ruin our friendship. I hope things won't change. :)

Wednesday

Warning: Di ninyo maiintindihan. 

About Wednesday. Yeah. I'm not that confused anymore. I've thought about what happened and I think it was just that. He didn't say anything about ... so now I know there's  no reason why he did all that... :| It is disappointing considering he is someone special - someone I truly care about and blabla but I guess I have to face the reality.

I'm just so weak. :)) I should always remind myself of the things I already know. :| 

Sadness decided to stay. 

btw, The SAY YES thing was a FAILURE.

Yes Kid!

There's nothing much happening in my life. I've been thinking what to say to my friends when we see each other. Like, I've been updating them with my life but none of the things I've told them would probably surprise or amuse them. 

I want things like "hey guess what.. there's this guy i met. we've been hanging out a lot lately. and.. last night...". That would be a fascinating interesting unusual story that would never ever come out of my mouth. :))

They say that life can never be boring. and that it's up to you to make it as colorful as it can be. Yea right. Like, what am I supposed to do? i don't know but there's really nothing interesting that has happened since the first day of school. Like, maybe there were times when new things started to happen but... somehow, those things never really progressed - got stuck for some unknown reason. 

So you guys heard of the movie, Yes Man? :D what if I start to say yes to everything? as in everything? will there be change? I don't know. I guess I hafta give it a shot. :) Say yes to everything FOR A DAY. :)) just for a day.-- and MAYBE, just maybe, THINGS'LL HAPPEN. :D 

Friends

Things are getting better lately.

I had so much fun with my high school friends yesterday.
We went to 180degrees for the anniversary party.

It feels so good to be surrounded with people who care, support, and love you.
Friends who don't really give you a hard time because they understand you and all. :)

I bought a 180deg bag for 150pesos. :) It's actually sulit already because the last time 180deg had a bag for sale, it think it was for 120pesos and the bag doesn't have a zipper. So it's not necessarily safe to put your expensive things inside that bag. Especially when you're always hanging in Tondo.

@_@
I have to go research on Green Architecture pa. byebye

Starbucks

I AM TIRED. and totally useless.

Today, I had some time to think about some insignificant stuff. Also, I did some observing.
I analyzed people's actions towards others, situations, and me. I also gave my actions and my thoughts some thought. Here are some things I concluded: (They're not necessarily CORRECT.)

First : People don't give a shit. Okay, maybe 3-5 friends will probably care.
Second: If their belief is far from what the majority believes in, there's a high risk that they'll engage themselves into crazy things just to conceal.
Third: Everyone's the same.
Fourth: Denying it won't change a thing.


I so want to talk to someone, not anyone.
But I'm lazy.
And I don't think talking will help lessen this sadness.

National Bookstore

Yesterday, my dad and I went to National Bookstore in Quezon Ave to buy some books. I was looking for the book that we need for DES1, Graphics Standard Student Edition. Unfortunately, they don't have the book. So I just bought other books. I bought a book on Critical Thinking - Yes, I love the subject. :) a book on Serial Killers - For unknown reasons, serial killers fascinate me. Robert Fulghum books - All I Really To Know I Learned In Kindergarten and It Was On Fire When I Lay Down On It. I also bought a book by Linda Fairstein - hell yea! CRIME, and a Discovery Channel magazine. :) 

When we were already waiting at the counter, I saw someone wearing the same uniform as I was wearing. Only, he's a guy. He was with his mother and I could see that he bought big Architecture books. Then his mom asked me if we were block mates. And I said no. (I haven't even seen that person in our building before.) I don't know but they were waiting for someone. The mother offered us their turn and told us that they were waiting for someone but we kinda refused. This was a good thing because I don't want them to see what books I bought - SERIAL KILLERS. and I have no Architecture books in my cart - I don't want them to know that! 

I also saw Aibee from section 8. The pretty girl. She's really pretty. Even prettier when close. :) I talked to her, asked her if she was also looking for the book we need in Des1 (Their professor is also Prof Mercado). She told me she already has one. Sheesh, she's pretty. :D

And there you go, we went home and I was very sleepy so I was really kinda bitchy last night. 

I haven't started anything pa. I guess I should start doing my homeworks. 

:)

HAHAHA! So true. :D

Quiz

The test in Filipino today was easy, IN MY DREAMS! (ha! I still can't get over the movie my block mates and I watched yesterday!) :))

Anyway, we have another quiz tomorrow. Written. Philippine History. Chapters... err? I don't know. Either it will be chapters 3, 4, and 5, or chapters 4, 5, and 6. And I think I'm pretty lucky because no one is on line right now. I don't feel like turning on my mobile phone so I guess I'll just wait for a block mate to go online. :) 

Today, our VT class ended earlier than usual because all we had to do was to finish drawing four shapes-no shading, just plain drawing. 

I feel really sleepy already. I can neither think properly nor stock these Historical information in my mind. I think it's best to sleep for awhile then I guess I'll just study History later. 

 

UPDATES

sorry for not blogging for such a long time

Update #1 :
                  I now have a macbook pro! July 7, 2010.

Update #2 :


                   My complexion is now darker. :|

Update #3 :

                   I am so fuckin' depressed right now and crying would probably be the only thing that can somehow help lessen the sadness, frustration, confusion, and misery I'm feeling at the moment.
                   Telling my friends what I feel won't be any help because I myself can't even analyze what is making me feel this way. I probably know deep down the reason of all this but I just can't seem to face the fact that it is the real reason of my current state of emotion. Yes, emo is the right word. And I thoroughly hate this. I try to be hyper and happy when I'm with my friends (block mates) but I sometimes space out and then I try to make jokes and try to laugh about it (because I really want to laugh), but everything seems fake. And I can't really tolerate being fake.
                   But now that I've thought about "the reason", it seems very shallow. I feel so shallow. I'm so immature. I don't know. I don't really want to be bad. I want to avoid hurting people as much as possible but sometimes I just can't help it. And I think that karma is getting its toll on me.
                   I feel like crying. :| I HONESTLY don't want  to hurt anyone. :(
                   I want to tell my friends what I think and what I feel but I don't really think they'd care. I don't really know where my thoughts are heading.
                   Also, I feel so stupid.


Update #4 :
                   Can you please tell me what the fuck is wrong with me?

My drug

Ever heard of the famous game TETRIS? Well, I'm addicted to it.
How did I get addicted to Tetris? It all started on a very boring day. I had a million thoughts in my head and I was reminiscing about high school. I remembered Sheridan and I used to play Audition Dance Battle and O2jam a lot! I began to miss playing the games. Then another thought came to me and it was the game my dad was addicted to, before the OLD cd player we had, broke down. It was PACMAN. The old Cd player we had had two games you can play. They were Pacman and Tetris. And every night, he plays Pacman and Tetris. I searched for Pacman games. I played it for a while but I didn't see the point in it because I suck at playing Pacman. So I decided to try playing Tetris.and  I rocked!  

 This is my highest score. I'm still trying to score higher than this. 

So.... This is what I'm like...?

So.. I have to admit I do bad things to some people. :| And I do get little help from my beloved friends. :) We have fun A LOT.  But but but.. we do have reasons to justify ourselves. ;)

There you go. I have a pleasing personality! HAHAHA! This is totally great. I'm PLEASING! hahahaha! You have got to believe this - this came from my friends!! Yes. Friends with an S -- more than one is MANY. :D 

HAHA. This is so true. I am always late. LATE for class. LATE for a meeting. LATE for lakwatcha time. :D LATE. haha!

There are things I buy that I really don't need. but I only buy them because they might be useful someday. :/ Sometimes, it turns out I'm correct, but most of the time I'm wrong. 

Okay. This is probably one of the things I like about myself. :) I ALWAYS, always do my best to help my friends with their problems. I don't know why but I really HATE to see my friends sad and/or problematic. :-/ I totally believe in the saying "If there's a problem, there's a solution." :D

=) hahaha. Smile when it hurts. KIDDING. hahahaha! That sentence is so emo. :)) I don't know why I smile a lot.

:D TRUE :D

I am CRRRRAAAAZZZYYY!! 

and bored.

Pissed At Everyone; Everything

I have ZERO (0) balance. I don't have cash. I don't have a job (yes, summer job) and I've got nothing to do. I'm not helping at all. My friends are planning to go for a trip next week and I still don't have the chutzpah to ask for permission and money from my parents. They would possibly allow me to go but since I'm not helping in the office and I KEEP ON GOING OUT (I can't help it), the chance of them giving me money for this outing seemed off for me. I doubt anyone can understand my situation. :| Well, to HELP you guys somehow understand my situation -- I went to this summer camp in China. As expected, it was pricy. Not to mention the allowance my dad gave me. :| So, there you go. GASTOS. Then, when I got back here in Manila, I still kept on going out. So my dad was like :

"Di ka na nakuntento. Nagibang bansa ka na nga kasama kaibigan mo. Lumalabas labas ka parin! Ang gastos mo."

I have to admit, my dad was right. But it's not like I can help it. Plus, yung mga lakad ko naman they're all for Welove Fad. Okay. Honestly, not all. But. Some of them were for Welove Fad and that's business and not plain lakwatcha. And somehow they don't understand that. I hate the fact that my dad is so thrifty. I mean, summer is almost over and I do want to enjoy summer. Since my schedule for college says byebye social life na. @_@ But I also can't blame my parents if they're already irritated. And yes, about the helping in the office thing... I WANT TO HELP -- I honestly do. But you see, whenever you go there, there's no job for you. You just sit there and wait for the phone to ring. There's no signal in the office so you can't use your phone. :| wala akong ginagawa dun. -_- And there's this one time.. I went there and I volunteered to write on vouchers, my dad told me that I can't because according to him, I don't know how --- (because I didn't spend enough time in the office to know how), INO -- Why not just teach me how instead of saying "YOU CAN'T blablbalbala", that happens a lot and that is one of the many reasons why I don't want to help anymore.

Hai. I just can't wait for college! :| Para naman 'di na ako bum. >:( =(

MY PLANS:

Photoshoot tomorrow at Jade Garden.

Thursday -- kuha lisensya

Friday -- Doctor

Saturday -- Going to UST with Jason Daytia and Andrew. Then jam sa house ko with Jason Lee and Earl Yu!

Sunday -- outing DAW with family. Don't know where. I hope di magddrive yung driver namin. (nakakainis na yun e)

Monday -- None pa. (wala. ayaw ko lumabas para payagan sa Wed. tutulong ako sa office kahit anong manyari!

Tuesday -- ayaw ko rin para payagan sa Wednesday. Same sa Monday

Wednesday -- yehey!

:( Sana matuloy lahat.

My UST Architecture Schedule! :d

I forgot to post my UST Schedule here on Blogspot. :D Byebye, Social Life! :)) I am kinda excited for college. :D

Looking Back..

A friend of mine, Jay Garte, posted old photos on Facebook. A lot of them were hilarious and they all made me laugh. So I decided to go check for some of the old photos I have. Thought it was a good idea but no no no. Looking at the old pictures, I got sad. Made me realize how a lot of things have changed. I'm not saying that I don't like the present, I'm just saying that I kinda miss the old times. We were all so simple-- everything WAS so simple. And I'm not saying that NOW is complex, but I just can't say that NOW is as simple as before. If you're going to ask me to choose between PRESENT AND THE PAST, I'd go for the past. :| But I know that's the wrong choice. So I'd probably just deal with what life is now. It made me sad because I just graduated from high school. And I'm moving forward -- all of the students in our batch -- we're moving forward, growing old, and stepping into a world that's realer and scarier. And the worst part about it, we can't go back. You can look back but you can't go back. Plus, come to think of it, the people who you always hang out with in high school, they're not all going to be there anymore. Especially when you guys are going to study in different schools. So I don't really want to fully believe the bullshit everyone's been saying : "Dadalawin kita!" "Sus. Close parin kahit na ibang school! kaya yan!" But I'm hoping that they meant every word they said , because I did.

Oh yea, here are some of MY old photos

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okay. my mom is being ANNOYING. I have to go BYE

First Day in Hong Kong

This is a photo of us in the plane. photo taken at around 9:30am :) My dad never failed to make us laugh! This is one of the many reasons why I LOVE MY DAD : He kept on asking us to take pictures of him and whenever we start to take photos of him, he acts as if he doesn't want us to. The funny thing is, he acts like he doesn't want to have photos taken but he poses for the camera. He did this several times today! haha
This is another photo taken inside the plane! My dad wanted to have photos taken from different angles, so. I was listening to Kimya Dawson. HAHA Funny, my dad's wearing shades even when there is no sunlight. :))
I think this photo was taken before we had our breakfast? or after? I forgot. @_@





We checked in The Royal Pacific Hotel and Towers in Canton Road Kowloon. I actually called the hotel 4 days before our flight here to HK.We arrived there at 12nn. We took the urban taxi from the airport (gees. ang bilis magpatakbo haha! nahilo ako konti) We went to the front desk and confirmed our reservation. we thought that we can finally get some rest ( WE didn't have enough sleep. I had like only 2 hours of sleep! --- I packed my things late ) but the guy told us that the room isn't ready yet and we have to just come back later at 2pm. So we decided to have our lunch nalang since it's already 12!


And sooo... We went out of the hotel and looked for a good place to have our lunch! :D
That my brother (hati siya sorry, bro!) my mom and my dad. :D Yes, they've decided to wear their jackets. :)) (Good idea though kasi it rained e)










So that's the cover of the menu ng restaurant where we had our lunch!! It was tasty. The rice was sticky and kinda oily and we used chopsticks! no forks no spoons! haha. Maybe that's the reason why the rice is sticky! --- so we won't have a difficult time using chopsticks. haha! Anyway, the food was okay. The waitress couldn't understand neither English nor Fukien so medyo natagalan kami sa paghingi ng bill! hahaha! Fun!




So after we ate our lunch, and payed the bill, we decided to go back to the hotel since it's already 2pm. -ready na ang room and we can REST!
pero there were distractions on the way to the hotel..... CAMERA LENSES! hahaha! Dad and I agreed to ask the guy in a shop how much is a 75-300mm canon lens. He said it's for 2800HK$, then after sobrang sandaling tawaran lang naging 2000HK$, haha THEN when I told dad that I'm not yet sure if I want to buy the lens, dad told the guy that we'll just come back later. The guy wont let us go~ HE WAS MAD! He kept on telling me "DONT MAKE EXCUSES! YOUR DAD WAS ABOUT TO PAY BUT YOU SAID GO TO HOTEL? WHY? WHAT'S WRONG?! YOU PAY NOW!" hahahaha that was scary! @.@ I wished I was invisible! hahaha! That time, the guy said we can have the lens for 1600HK$~ IMAGINE! but we didn't buy it anyway. I had to ask pros first... hahaha (incase you don't know, I'm a noob)
So we went back to the hotel, and guess what. I tried to take a photo of my mom and everything's a blur! WHY?! That as$hole from the camera shop left his fingerprints on my camera's lens! damn! What a bitch, right?!

We went to the front desk to get the keys to our room. He gave the keys to our room, 1635. It's on the 16th floor! haha. We were already excited and couldn't wait to get some rest when we realized our room was located at the end of the floor! i don't know if you know about the superstition about hotel rooms that are located at the end of a floor but i tell you, it's bad. So my dad told me to go to the front desk and request for a new room. A room near the elevator. I can tell the guy from the front desk was starting to get irritated! haha! (I got a little irritated rin). So he gave us room 1640. Located at the same floor. See <<<








So here I am blogging about what happened earlier today! It's still raining here in Hong Kong. And it's cold! My fingers are freezing.
I hope JR and I could meet here in HK... since andito rin naman siya. :D haha! My mom, my dad and my brother are asleep! :D HAHA
I will post a blog about the 2nd day of our stay here. We will be staying here for 5 nights and 6 days. :D
I'll be tweeting!

I survived !!!

YEY

Graduation Tomorrow

Our graduation day is tomorrow. Everyone is making a big deal about it. Yes, high school graduation happens only once but I don't really give a shit if it does. I don't really need to make it memorable. I feel lazy and everything.
I don't know but someone is making me feel bad (im pretty sure that person isn't intentionally doing that) because of something I have no control of. I'm sick. I can careless. I am pissed. At everything.
No one is helping and no one can help.
I just wish everyone would leave me alone.
I like being alone. I sometimes pretend I hate it. but I really don't. I enjoy every second of loneliness.
So please stop making me feel bad for liking loneliness.
I can't help it.
I'm tired.

Alumni Party

I had a lot of fun today! Probably because I spent 80% of my day without my mom? Kidding! HEHE. >:)
I was in the auditorium for this Alumni Party. I was late for an hour but the party started 2 and a half hours late. At first, the party was pretty boring and on my left was a girl who's not into talking and on my right was a girl who can't stop crying. This girl on my left was my classmate for three consecutive years and even though we were classmates, we never really clicked. We're okay and we're friends but we're just not close. She's kind and pretty and some say she's fun to be with though I can't spot any trace of fun in her. Maybe she is. Maybe she isn't. The girl on my right can't stop crying because she found out that the teachers were arguing whether to pass her or not. But that's not really the reason why she's crying. She was crying because she was on deliberation and is still on deliberation while her 'friends' who cheated from her is not on deliberation anymore; already passed the deliberation process.

We never really did anything during the party. We just ate our lunch there, talked, watched, and cheered. I'm one of the officers of our batch so I took the oath in front of everyone in the auditorium. It was bloody embarrassing and I can't thoroughly understand what we were reading because it was all in Mandarin! I kinda panicked for like a second but then I calmed down when the President of the CKSAA told us to repeat after him. (HEHE. I was worried because there was no zhu yin!) I'm not really an expert in Mandarin! :D
So after that, we just watched the performers do there "thang"! I really find Mark Dean and Mark So very talented! I was so impressed by Angeline Ngo's dance moves!! She was kickin' it! I was like WOW! This girl CAN DANCE! All of the dancers were awesome and their moves were wicked but Mark Dean, Mark So and Angge are the best dancers for me. :) I find Mabeth cute too! I even saw John Christopher Tiu on stage! I wouldn't notice him if Sheri didn't tell me! I never really thought he would dance ON STAGE. @_@
For me, that was the BEST performance. Second goes to the blacklights of the College! That was really cute! Made me smile throughout! and THIRD goes to i don't know. :)
I didn't like the Taylor Swift thing the college did! :-| We didn't have fun watching them perform but I can tell they had fun. It wasn't bad but it wasn't great, it was kinda funny (in a nice way).

I can care less.

Posting of the list of graduates is on March 20, 2010. That's on Saturday! :)
Rehearsal for graduation is on the 22nd --- a Monday!
See you guys! Let's all be positive!

New blog!

I deleted my old blog, Outlet.

It was messed up so I had to make a new one. I'm going to be consistent in blogging starting now. Why? Because high school is over. Okay. Non-sequitor. The reason I made this new blog is because I simply don't want to keep the old one. It contained too much nonsense and crap. but I assume that this blog will also contain those two; Perhaps it'll contain more.

I can't really think of a good and attractive blog title. I was thinking of "Things I learned Today" since I have a journal also titled as that, but it's handwritten and the entries are all in bullet form. I'm going to change it as soon as I think of a really cool and appropriate title.

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I'm sleepy.