I can't help thinking that I should've posted a blog when I was happy. So when times like these come, I can remember I felt good at that moment. I know I can't tell you everything that had happened to me after the last blogpost, but I'm going to try somehow.
Well, I didn't get any failing grades during my freshman and sophomore years. Unfortunately, now I have 2. Failed due to absences BT2. and a failing grade in ES (Engineering Science). It sucks.
I also have an INC grade in BU (Building Utilities) which is SUPER weird because I submitted all the requirements for the subject. I never missed a quiz. And I'm not always absent.
I honestly think that this semester is my most 'patapon' sem yet. I go out a lot even if it's a school night, I stay out late during the weekends, I don't go home, and everything. I'm not sure but I think I know the reason behind my actions. It's a little hard to accept since it is stupid to let something like that affect my actions and my studies. I should never let something like this happen again.
I'll tell you why. I was in a relationship with someone for eleven months. At first, it started out great like all relationships do. It was still a great relationship in general. We didn't cheat at each other or anything like that, but I guess I just got fed up with everything he's prohibiting me to do. I can't help thinking that at that moment, we were just boyfriend girlfriend, we weren't engaged or anything close to that. But I felt like I was behind bars. I couldn't go out with friends, I could and I know he'd let me, but you know the feeling you get when someone will let you do something you like, but will make you feel guilty about doing it. Because you love that someone and that someone doesn't approve of what you want to do.
I just felt like he was depriving me of things that could've been opportunities for me for my future, for our future, for my dreams. This is just one of the reasons why I ended our relationship. Don't get me wrong, he is a good person. One of the best people you'll ever meet in your life. I'm glad I met him. And all the good times we've shared will never be forgotten. He'll always a place in my heart no matter what happens. But things really needed to turn around. We weren't growing and I felt bad all the time.
Some things just aren't supposed to last.
